I am a lonely painter

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Sat, 17 Jul 2004 21:27:54 GMT

Once upon a time
i was going to the mountain TOMORROW.
i am tres tres excited.
tonight im spending the night at lise's house, and we are going to do all the traditional stuff
like watch shawshank redemption
and i will make a grilled cheese and not set her kitchen on fire while she writes a ridiculous entry in my livejournal
and i will gawk at the stamps in her refrigerator
it will be much fun
this afternoon my parents and i went to borders
and i saw AMY GORDON<--- hahahahha maddie
also, brandy returned my call on my moms cell phone
i miss brandy
but she might try to visit me at camp
im excited. its been 4 years.
i cant wait to see all my buddies.

you should write me mail. and i will ((try)) to write you back.

Scottie Mitchell
Mountain Camp
P.O. Box 1299
Highlands, NC
28741

if you write me mail i will be your personal slave. so please write.

also, be expecting lise's entry tonight...i imagine it will be along the lines of "OH MY GOD. I GET TO SEE JESSE PRENTICE DUNN TOMORROW!!!!"

haha. lise.

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Sat, 20 Mar 2004 00:24:45 GMT

ummmm

so i was having a great day up until now. now everything is pissing me off and i don't really know why. especially my parents. im going to shoot them in a few minutes. my god. i dont know how im going survive 7 hours in the car with them tomorrow. hfidswjqivsdndasnwqiojweoiskjsdknsa,masdlkwqoiwekndfsmnk

i wish i had a river i could skate away on...

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Mon, 15 Mar 2004 00:33:27 GMT

it makes me happy when my dad tells me that he voted for dennis kucinnich.

it also makes me happy when i realize that i will be with jamie in one week from today :-) i cannot wait to see you my jamie girl. i miss you so much.

it does not make me happy that i have to write an outline of a paper for a book that i havent read. or that i have a math test this tuesday which basically determines whether i pass, or...yeah dont want to go there. plus i have no idea what the chapter is about. oh well. 4 more days of school until spring break!

the lakehouse is going to fucking rock so hardcore. jet ski, lots of girls (NOT SEXUAL!!!:-) ), a house to ourself...oh its gonna be so much fun. eeee i cant wait. 10 whole days without mrs garcia. eeeeeee

jesse's girl makes me really happy as well. 80s music in general makes me happy. i think im gonna make an 80s dance mix for the lakehouse. we are so gonna have a dance party :-D

we didnt go camping this weekend. also i have an entire pack of cloves that i dont know what in the hell to do with. maybe i can give them to my girlfriend...its her birthday. hahahahahhaha. also rc pierced my ear but it was in the wrong spot so now i have a gaping hole in my ear. not really. it's just swollen. i need to go knit some more. also i need to do my homework. but guess who doesnt want to. yes that is me. thumbs up for procrastination :-D

FUCK

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Sat, 07 Feb 2004 21:17:56 GMT

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

i just realized that the mountain con is the same weekend as my confirmation. IF I DONT GET TO GO TO THE MOUNTAIN SOMEONES GONNA GET KILLED.

RAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRR

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Sat, 22 Nov 2003 04:18:54 GMT

hey maddie?

i <3 you.

the weekend, its about goddamned time.

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Sat, 22 Nov 2003 00:59:27 GMT

holy SHIT my mother can stick a piece of shit up her ass for all i care. she treats me like i am one of her second grade students. she made me write down on this fucking piece of paper that said "i promise not to do blah blah blah" and made me fucking sign it and was talkign to me like i was 4 years old. i could seirously shoot her sometimes.

god.

today has been a good day, for the most part. the bio test was postponed untill monday because of the ice cream social thing. me and nasi went to the book fair instead, because we're cool. then leila came home with me after school. i feel bad, it was really boring because there is nothing whatsoever to do. so we didnt really no what to say or do and justt kinda sat around for a long time. but shes a cool kid so its all good.

my parents are such assholes.

im going over to lane's house now. g'night.

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Sun, 16 Nov 2003 04:07:58 GMT

Jene62: did you write about how great she wqas in lj yet?!?!

amen. we saw alix olson last night, and it was so incredibly amazing. she was so cute and really funny. she told lots of stories and god she was so wonderful. we were sitting right up front on the ground in front of the stage. so close as to see her spitting while she talked :) ahhhh i cant even describe how great she was. and after the show we got her to sign some stuff, and got a few pictures with her. i also got a sticker signed for lane. speaking of stickers, hazel got us a ton of free shit because she told sam she was promoting the shows. ahh. also, alix recognized hazel and jen from lilish fair, which is so awesome. i told her about how i wanted to get into the 18+ show in tally in a few days, so we went to talk to sam her tour manager. apparently i got on the list and hopefully i will be able to get in. if not, there are always fake ids...
she is really hot in person. in the pictures she looks a tad bit, well, not-as-hot. but daaamn in person she is gorgeous as anything. and so funny and nice. she was incredibly friendly to everyone and didnt get annoyed (or didnt act like it) when we talked to her 5 million times :)

definetly one more thing that can be crossed off my list of things to do before i die. damn.

so then later we stayed at jens house in tampa. the next morning we went thrift store shopping and i got some hot stuff. and it was all a dollar! hot stuff. now i am home doing nothing and being bored. then end. good night.

p.s. i will soon post pictures of last night when i get my film developed. which will be very soon.

what a good day.

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Mon, 10 Nov 2003 22:07:18 GMT

doncha just love those mondays that dont suck? yep. today was one of those days. let me just read off all the good stuff

1) mme shaftel is a pushover and her class is always easy
2) we had a sub in english and our test was really easy
3) the spawn of satan i mean mrs garcia wasnt there and we had a sub
4) we didnt have to do newspaper day in life management (thank GOD) because we had a nice deputy come in and talk about how we will get expelled if we traffic marijuana
5) we didnt have to dress out in PE
6) mrs ouimet gets cooler by the minute and i love her class like you would never believe
7) tomorrow we have no school and hopefully i will hang out with julie and delilah
8) also someone today was extra friendly and gave me hugs and talked to me a lot :)

yes. good good day. maddie you changed your OD name and its annoying me because you wont respond. also call me tonight. and poor mc wasnt at school today because she, er, has a bit of bottom trouble (aka she has the runs like its her job)
oh and guess what else is good. friday rc is coming to lunch with me! and shes bringing rascal. and then we are going to tampa to see drum roll please......................

alix olson!

yaaaaay im very excited. once i again i reiterate no school tomorrow. ahh life is good. <3

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Wed, 08 Oct 2003 01:40:28 GMT

i seriously dont know what im going to do to keep myself from exploding. what do you do about one of your best friends that thinks you dont see her every time she rolls her eyes at you, makes a mean face behind your back, flicks you off, or whispers to the person next to her about how obnoxious you are? a friend who doesnt think that you hear about all the mean things she says about you "the reason scottie didnt get back in time from the dragon room was because she was talking to christy the whole time. that bitch better pay me back for my food." um hello i was the only one in line, everyone else was smoking... or try this one- "god we are gonna have to rewrite scotties entire part of the presentation because it sucks." okay, if you hate it so much then YOU DO SOMETHING besides watching me do all the work, since after all, how much have you written for this? fucking nothing. she talks about me all the time and i dont say a goddamn thing about her. ever. dont get me wrong i want to scream in her face sometimes about how she makes me feel like shit, but i dont. it really makes me mad. and im not saying that i dont annoy her, because we all get on each others nerves sometimes. but she just does not let it go, and will talk behind your goddamn back. HELLO. YOU DO NOT MAKE FRIENDS BY BEING A BITCH. me and mc have talked about this so many times but havent confronted her about it because the last time we tried it didnt work. i dont know what to do. i dont want to lose her as a friend because ive known her since i was 3 years old, shes one of my best friends. but she is so mean to me, and mc too, and i dont know how much more i can take.

im out.

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Sun, 28 Sep 2003 23:11:03 GMT

so last night me and mc went to a gas station to buy a whole bunch of candy for a midnight snack, which we often do when i spend the night at her house, except this time we had only $4. so we got our stuff and went up to the cash register and there was a $5 bill laying on the table.

me: (whispering to mc) man i just want to snatch that $5 bill
guy at cash register: okay, thatll be $4.50
MC: crap! we only have $4!
guy: no, you already payed. you have enough
MC: what? no-
me: calm down mc i just payed. we have enough
we walk outside...
me: MC, run! before the guy figures out that that money wasnt ours!!!

i am sick like death. i wont die of the plague i promise.

p.s. i win.

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Mon, 08 Sep 2003 21:39:56 GMT

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meeeyyyyhhhn, fuck that shit *turns and runs*

so this afternoon i went to the doctor to get blood drawn. i am deathly afraid of needles, so i was squeezing mc's hand like youd never believe. then when she finally stuck the needle in me, i was so surprised that i drooled all over myself.

it was a classic moment.

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Mon, 01 Sep 2003 19:26:30 GMT

this is lise

OH MY GOD!!!!!!! NICKEL CREEK IS COMING TO TALLAHASSEE ON OCTOBER 23 AND I'M GONNA GO OR I'LL DIE!!!!(knock on wood)
oooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh wow. they rule!!!!
jesse sounds kinda like them. he's so great! i love jesse!!!!AAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!^_^
anyway, *gasping for air* its go hot in here!!!! the ac doesn't work and this fucked up fan is so old!! it won't turn on and if it does it take a year to get going! stupid fan. I love scottie's house!! its so CUTE!!!!!!!! i wanna just wrap it up and throw it in the prarie or somthing. AHHHHHH
Renee Zelwiger can go die!! i don't like her at all! she's so squishy and puffy and her eyes look like theyu were glued together!
jesse can play guitare soooooo well!! wow i'll e his manager and we'll go on a tour and play really good music!! (well, i'll just watch, he'l be doing all the playing) i'm sweaty and i probably reak
i really hate renee zelwiger! she does NOT DESERVE to be in Chicago!! i could do her part with my eyes shut, even though hers pretty much were through the entire movie! i really love CHicago! the cellbock tango!!WOOO!!!! that song (and dance) kicks major ass!!!! This song is so emo!!hah! (i'm hearing some song on the computer)GOD!! its SOOO EMO!!!!!(long nights) jeez....hahaha
Chicago is the best movie! i love that movie. i hate the god damn renee zelwiger! but CATHERINE ZETA JONES!!! that woman is GODdess...
ANYWAY!!! I don think i spelled her name right but deal with it, she can sing, dance, and act AND do all 3 at the same time!!!! plus she's SO pretty!!!! i love her so much!! stupid renee stealing her glory!!! RAAHHHHHHH!!!well, no, that THING could NEVER steall Catherine's glory, she's just to cool!!!!
jesus dick how many times did i misspell shit in this thing? i DON CARE!!!!!!! well, i DO but...yeah...
wow, i was supposed to learn the guitar after the mountain but its been, what, 2 months since then? yeah, i suck. OH! i ALSO haven't developed my mountain pics yet. i'm so lame. buh.

homestarrunner.com

heh, strongbad...haha......check out hic email (at the bottom of the screen "sb email" k? good

oooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhh the RADIO!!!!i never listen to the radio. just my crappy cds, and erin's good ones (erin, my sister) well, my cds are getting a little better, Scottie is gonna burn indigo girls for me! and i'm gonna get some nickel creek and i just got incubus and Stroke 9's new cd (took them friggen long enough)
hey, you should check out stroke 9, the lead singeer has THE sexiest voice i ever heard...probably. well I LOVE THEM!!!!
and green day (did i already say this?)
goin to baskin robins (holy crap, i DID NOT mispell that, did i?)
so later!!!

lise

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Mon, 01 Sep 2003 05:03:51 GMT

i have come to realize that the only tv i watch anymore is arthur and will and grace.

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Fri, 22 Aug 2003 01:47:28 GMT

why the hell do i always get blown off? seriously. its happened like 10 times in the past 4 days. and for a certain person who i know will be reading this, no, im not talking about you. its other times. ugh, i just wish i could talk to people. im not mad at them or anything, it just gets tiring after a while. oh well. maybe i just suck.

and here i am saying this, when ive blown off one of my really good friends about 5 times recently. not on purpose obviously, and neither have my friends, but still. god.

i guess i really do suck.

oh wait i take that back. i told jamie i wouldnt say that.

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Wed, 20 Aug 2003 00:05:39 GMT

i cant listen to in your eyes. i feel like ive been punched in the stomach. its such a pity, because i like that song a lot. but every time i hear it, i get this flood of emotions and feel all nostalgic and my stomach drops. sigh

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Sun, 17 Aug 2003 02:16:21 GMT

i almost got eaten by an alligator today!

god damnit george pick up your phone

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Thu, 14 Aug 2003 18:06:22 GMT

these are apparently all of my closest not-listed friends. lets see how many i know. and tell me which ones you know
1: boyleaving-ed
2: sangrexdelxamo-adriana
3: step_on_m3-mm whats her name...stephanie? scotts friend
4: unmotivatedgeek-scott
5: aintlifegrand
6: artistboi
7: coppertongue
8: daveyjay
9: habanerasamlet
10: janackeh-jen's friend whos also in the righteousbabe community
11: zuluwarriorfred
12: a13ean
13: bookstore
14: cantholdstars
15: orangecrush1189
16: psychoninjapimp
17: rancidpunk
18: ghettocurry
19: dannycepticon
20: ca_sxe_y
21: maino30
22: coraaaaa
23: beandipbaron-ashleys twin i think
24: brownputty
25: misfitreject001
26: nakedart
27: sagie
28: thatuugirl
29: bloodytutu
30: joanjettofarc
31: littleduck123
32: apaphoria
33: bakadeshi
34: bibledude215
35: drligo
36: fridaypenguin
37: kamisama
38: kelfa
39: ngcfan525
40: raindreamer
41: hillelslovak
42: cheekiepoo
43: dreamgirl48
44: sheguitarfiend
45: simpleconfusion
46: wishfulthinker
47: blondextin
48: nohope4love
49: searbear-the girl daniella hates whos obsessed with dior
50: shmulie

the end. tell me if you know any more

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Sun, 10 Aug 2003 04:08:01 GMT

today was quite possibly the most emotionally taxing days ever. all to be explained later, i must go to bed. good night.

i look to my eskimo friend

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Thu, 07 Aug 2003 04:56:40 GMT

so me and rc have been trying to figure out whether we are funny, or actually really really stupid and are just funny to ourselves. mature, or actually really immature dumbasses. its hard to tell...

past few days have been great. at the lakehouse with the cousins, wonderful. lots of jetskiing and WONDERFUL buys from the goodwill in starke. i got 2 excellent 80s dresses, perfect for mountain dances. rc and i went to gainsville today which took FOREVER, but was overall, quite entertaining. we walked all over the place. we went to several bookstores and then to the farmers marker where there are lots of hippies and other cool people that make me want to talk to them. then we walked by maudes and saw hot steph taylor with the dreads, then went to burrito brothers. yum. we also got lots of baby bottle pops (aka something else, rc).

okay. so this is so weird and SO ironic. so i was thinking about a friend from camp that i havent talked to in about a year. we used to write letters and call each other, but then something happened, i dont really know what, and it just all stopped suddenly. so i was thinking about her the other day, and i was like "when i get home from the lakehouse, im gonna write galina a letter". so i was planning on writing her today or tomorrow. i get home tonight, and WHO do i have mail from? HER! hooooooow weird. of all the times i would get mail from her, it would be tonight! we havent talked for a year, and i just happen to get one from her the exact day i plan on writing her. how strangely bizzare and ironic.

so thats the update on my life. snow cones tomorrow, and hopefully sinkholes and java heads with the cousins. :-)

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Fri, 01 Aug 2003 15:13:08 GMT

haikus are hardcore

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Thu, 31 Jul 2003 15:50:59 GMT

rc and i were looking through some old, old pictures last night. we found the funniest picture EVER. its me when i was four, and i looked like an angry rat child. no kidding. i had a mullet, and i was wearing a mickey mouse shirt, a big bulky sweater tied around my waist, puffy floral pants, lacy socks pulled up over the bottom of the pants, and black patin leather shoes with big bows on them. its fucking hilarious. god, how did my parents let me dress like that? hahaahahaa

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Wed, 30 Jul 2003 07:06:18 GMT

im reading over all these old livejournal entries that i wrote and its so funny. mc you should do it too, look at all the crazy shit we have written. all these crackhead comments youve posted. good god.

a long survey because im very bored

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Tue, 29 Jul 2003 17:43:03 GMT

Current Clothes: dirty jeans and righteous babe shirt

Current Music: addicted to ben harper

Current Taste: nothing, i havent eaten anything today. im a dumbass its 1:00

Current Make-up: chapstick

Current Hair: rats nest

Current Smell: hobo

Current thing I ought to be doing: working on summer reading reports

Current Desktop Picture: war is not healthy for children and other living things

Current Favorite Artist: ben folds and/or harper (and, duh, ani)

Current Favorite Group: dispatch

Current Book: just finished anne of green gables

Current CD in CD Player: morning circle songs, sarah mclachlan, and jimmy eat world maybe

Current tape in vcr: the great mouse detective :-)

Current Color Of Toenails: gross

Current Refreshment: watermelon-blueberry snowcone!

Current Worry: having to work on summer reading projects

LAST PERSON...

You Touched: rc

You Talked to: rc

You Hugged: lise

You Instant messaged: jamie last night

You Yelled At: my mom

You Kissed: hmm cant remember. i kiss a lot of people

FAVORITE...

Food: hopkins veggie sandwich

Drink: shirley temple

Color: purple

Album: rockin' the suburbs

Shoes: converses all the way

Candy: baby bottle pops!

Animal: my puppy

TV Show: golden girls and arthur :-)

Movie: the emporers new groove

Song: twist and shout

Vegetable: cucumbers

Fruit: oranges

Cartoon: the simpsons and arthur

ARE YOU...

Understanding: hope so

Open-minded: i try to be

Arrogant: hmm i hope not. i dont think so

Insecure: nope

Interesting: hope so

Random: me? never.

Hungry: havent been hungry all day. my lunch was a snowcone :)

Friendly: definitly. i love friends

Smart: yeah

Moody: sometimes

Childish: ill never grow up

Independent: in some aspects yes

Hard working: yes, for some things

Organized: yeah, right.

Healthy: i try. not today though

Emotionally Stable: yes

Shy: hardly ever

Difficult: depends on who im dealing with. with my parents, always.

Attractive: definitly wouldnt say im drop-dead gorgeous, but i guess im alright when i dont look like a hobo

Bored Easily: when im alone, of course. im a very people person

Messy: HA. are you kidding me? my middle name is messy

Thirsty: nope

Responsible: hmm. dont know. sometimes...?

Obsessed: with some things, yes. am i obsessed with mc? yes.

Angry: thankfully no

Sad: nope

Happy: almost always

Hyper: of course

Trusting: toward some people

Talkative: ha. neverrrr

Legal: what

WHO DO YOU WANT TO...

Kill: amy gordon

Slap: amy gordon

Get Really Wasted With: no one

Get High With: havent been high before, but i guess if i did i want to be with mc and eva<------ crackhead

Tickle: parke

Look Like: me

Talk To Offline: mc

Talk To Online: daniella, lise, bri, jamie, george, emily, borger

so rc came home so we could get a snowcone together. the snowcone man comes by our house every weekday during the summer on his way to the park. id been waiting outside and he didnt come and i thought id missed him. i went inside to get rc so we could go down to the park, then i looked out the window and there he was driving by. we went to the park, and as i was getting a snowcone, he asked me "oh, did you miss me at your house?" how cool is that. he recognizes me. he sees 5 million kids every day and he recognizes me. i love that guy. hes so cool. hes had his snowcone truck for as long as i can remember, and he never fails to pass by our house. aaah

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Mon, 28 Jul 2003 23:52:43 GMT

p.s. i love jamie.

WakeAurora@hotmail.com — Mon, 28 Jul 2003 18:57:58 GMT

yaaaaaay for mail. i got lots today. lots and lots and lots. i love it.